When It Rains... It Really Does Pour...

Wow-- this year has not been so hot so far. Sorry for the quiet page for the past few weeks- I've been in misery health-wise. Dave initially got sick (presumably because whatever was already wrong with his lungs made him more vulnerable) (which for those of you who don't already know- he's got a mass in his lungs that we're still trying to figure out what it is)-- anywho-- so then Owen wound up getting really sick- home 4 days in a row with a fever between 103.5 and 105 + a horrible cough.. it was horrible.. then he started a round of antibiotics and then...predictably... I got sick... but i didn't just simply get sick-- i got REALLY sick-- like pneumonia sick... and it's not responding to antibiotics at all.. I started on amoxicillin first (because well.. with no insurance antibiotics are a little out of my budget so we tried to throw some hope at it lol)... well.. quite frankly-- it did absolutely nothing- and next.. i took z-pack (azithromyicin) which started to make me feel better... but.. ultimately in the last day and a half of my supply my cough started to come back-- and I thought it was ok- but then... today... it came back with a vengeance.. and now.. i can't sleep... which I'm sure is only going to make it worse... so.. i decided to give the codeine script i never filled a try tonight.. and it seems to be helping slightly.. so hopefully i can sleep soon.. but.... man this has been rough-- and obviously all this has not helped in the least with me catching up with my school work-- so... I'm just kind of slipping away.. but.. hopefully all will be well again soon- I'm going back to the doctor (AGAIN) tomorrow after i drag my sorry ass to class in the morning (I hope anyway lol- we'll see if i manage to make... i may well end up completely retaking my classical mythology class.. because I'll be really surprised if i don't fail it (you think I'm kidding-- but seriously I'm doing worse this semester than I've done in my entire life at school- i just pulled a 74% on my physiology exam 3 weeks ago- that's unheard of for me.. i just can't even believe what's happening...) for those of you with religious hearts... pray for me.. i really need it right now... i don't know what happened but the holidays hit, passed, and when i came out on the other side my life was upside down and something just snapped and i can't get things back how they were... something has to give.. right?

Long Night

So I never thought i'd ever in my life learn this much about nerves.... I'm utterly exhausted-- and i still have 4 chapters to review by monday.... on the bright side-- supposedly this section of the course covers a third of the material for the entire class- so after monday it will all be behind me for the most part (well-- not if you count that i have to retain it enough to take my final at the end of the semester-- which i think the cumulative section of the last test is only 20%-- the other 80 comes from the last section covered in class.... ) ANYWHO.... tomorrow.. i get to study some more :( and in effect i miss out on a minimum of half the day with my son and Dave... who will be going out to my parents house to help with a project my dad has (putting in a new giant window...) hopefully that will give me enough time-- then tuesday i have a buttload of stuff to do at the state library researching the homicides of franklin click--- yahoo... :P fun fun fun... not to mention i have a spanish quiz the following day-- which i have YET to be able to crack a book open for-- because i've been so bogged down by anatomy and my indiana homicides class-- i mean really?? should a one credit hour class take up THIS much of my time??? not to even get me started on the fact that it was purely elective and has NOTHING to do with my major-- well-- it does to an extent but it wont count towards it....
anyway.. i've discovered that in order to maintain my 3.92... the only class i can even briefly think of getting a B in is my indiana homicides course-- but i cant RAISE my GPA unless i get an A in everything... and unfortunately it was starting to look like i would get a B in my spanish course--- but.. alas-- if i do that--- i will drop my overall gpa to nearly 3.81--- totally not acceptable-- puts me at too much risk of having to reapply in the spring of 09... and well... that puts me graduating in 2012-- leaving an age gap of 8... count em.. 8 years (7 1/2 if we're lucky)between our children... too much for me... i'm not willing to do that.... so... i'm adament that i'm getting in next fall (i REALLY wish it was spring-- i hate that i didnt notice those classes had to be finnished by summer session II) anyway... that has me graduating in fall of 2011-- owen would be *gasp* 6 1/2--sooo... hopefully... i'll be at least a couple months pregnant at graduation lol (yeah as if i could be so lucky...) and they wil only be 7 years apart :( but.. still more than i was hoping-- i was hoping for more like 5 years apart-- but even if i could get in next semester it would still only be like 6 1/2 best case scenario.... i'm getting a little depressed right now
:( sorry i'm rambling....
its making me want to reconsider having another baby before i'm out of college-- but i honestly dont think we could afford the extra daycare at this point....
Anyway... I guess i'm off to bed now-- i'm freezing so.. at least i'll get to be warm lol...